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Biggest Part Of Me by Ambrosia

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Yeah

(Sunrise) There’s a new sun arisin’
(In your eyes) I can see a new horizon
(Realize) That will keep me realizin’
You’re the biggest part of me

(Stay the night) Need your lovin’ here beside me
(Shine the light) Need you close enough to guide me
(For all my life) I’ve been hopin’ you would find me
You’re the biggest part of me

Well

Make a wish, baby
Well, and I will make it come true
Make a list, baby
Of the things I’ll do for you
Ain’t no risk, now,
In lettin’ my love rain down on you,
So we could wash away the past,
So that we may start anew

(Rainbow) Risin’ over my shoulder;
(Love flows) Gettin’ better as we’re older
(All I know) All I want to do is hold her
She’s the life that breathes in me
(Forever) Got a feelin’ that forever
(Together) We are gonna stay together
(For better) For me, there’s nothin’ better
You’re biggest part of me

Well

Make a wish, baby
Well, and I will make it come true
Make a list, baby
Of the things I’ll do for you
Ain’t no risk, now,
In lettin’ my love rain down on you,
So we could wash away the past,
So that we may start anew

Oh

More than an easy feelin’,
She brings joy to me
How can I tell you
What it means to me?
Flow like a lazy river
For an eternity
I’ve finally found someone
Who believes in me,
And I’ll never leave

Oh

Oh, not to doubt now
Mmmm, make life grand

Well

Make a wish, baby
Well, and I will make it come true
Make a list, baby
Of the things I’ll do for you
Ain’t no risk, now,
In lettin’ my love rain down on you,
So we could wash away the past,
So that we may start anew

(Beside me) Need your lovin’ here beside me
(To guide me) Keep it close enough to guide me
(Inside of me) From the fears that are inside of me
You’re the biggest part of me

(Forever) Got a feelin’ that forever
(Together) We are gonna stay together
(Forever) From now until forever
You’re the biggest part of me
You’re the life that breathes in me
You’re the biggest part of me

Mmmmm

You changed my life
You made it right
And I’ll be a servant to you
For the rest of my life
You’re the biggest part of me..

My Life

Again..

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Here I go again.. Feeling exhausted.. Tired.. And empty.. Why? Why do I have to feel this when I decided to get rid of it a long time ago? Why does it have to haunt me and give me this depressing feeling?

I know.. All along I am just in denial of how I really feel.. I’m trying to suppress everything I could and decided that, instead of receiving the pain from another person, I’d rather hurt myself in the process.. That I can handle it without anyone’s help.. And I don’t wish to burden anyone with my problems.. They won’t understand me anyway.. They’ll think it’s just too shallow and senseless..

They would never understand all the fear and frustrations I have inside.. The longing, the dreams and fantasies I am trying to brush off because I know nothing of those will come true.. That, if for others, it’s just like kids stuff..

I am trying to understand myself too if this thing is just temporary and would eventually fade in time.. I have been like this for months now–not really knowing what to do, where to go and who to talk to.. I have tried asking for help but it seems that help has hidden itself from me as well.. Telling me that I should take care of this on my own..

But how? Hide in the mountains? Escape to Africa? Move to outer space? Dive into the depths of the earth? Anywhere would do, just make me invisible.. Or make this feeling gone.. Sometimes, I just want to die.. For all of these to be finished.. Maybe if I’ll be gone from this world, I can help it to be a better place, one less unimportant and lovelorn soul..

But even doing that, I am afraid.. I am afraid that I’ll offend God.. I’ll disapppoint those people who think that I am worth it.. Am I? I couldn’t feel it..

I’m in the brink of my understanding and patience.. If I am worth it, they why? Why is this happening to me? Am I gonna be forever like this? If this is true, my God, please, take my heart out and my emotions and let me live like the undead.. Don’t let me feel this emptiness and loneliness.. I don’t want to pretend that I am happy and contented when I am not.. That I am ok, yet inside, my heart is already wrecked into pieces..

No, I am not ok.. I am cut into million pieces.. And I don’t know if someone can still save me..

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My Life

Spark, Magic and Love…

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Take me to your heart,
Show me where to start
Let me play the part of your first love..

All the stars are right,
Every wish is ours tonight, my love..

Pity those who wait,
Trusting love to fate
Finding out too late that they’ve lost it..

Never letting go,
They will never know the ways of love..

Got to believe in magic
Tell me how two people find each other
In a world that’s full of strangers..

You’ve got to believe in magic
Something stronger than the moon above
‘Cause it’s magic when two people fall in love..

I may never know,
Why I need you so
All I need to know is this feeling..

Handle it with care,
We were born to share this dream my love..

I guess everyone knows that this is a song by David Pomeranz titled Got To Believe.. Yes, it has been running through my mind for days now.. Maybe the local show of Kathryn Bernardo and Daniel Padilla having the same title adds up to the retention of the song on my mind..

Is it really like magic? Having two people, total strangers, meet and fall in love? Is it really destiny that made them finally bumped to each other and fall to each other’s arms?

I have written before about films having this kind of themes — destiny, kismet, fate, serendipity — whatever you call it.. I am still amazed whenever I see those films and wonder if the same applies to me.. That someday, out from nowhere, I’ll meet that person whom I am destined with..

I am also curious if people really believe in “love at first sight” or if people believe that love develops and blooms as you get to know the other person more..

I asked two of my good friends (a guy and a lady), which they do believe in — “love at first sight” or “love that developed and bloomed”.. One is currently single and the other is engaged.. And it kinda amazed me of their answers and opinion on this..

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Hazel, Engaged — “I don’t believe in love at first sight.. It still boils down to personality.. Beauty fades but a good personality remains until the end.. Love at first sight is just superficial..”

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Dino, Single — “It’s not really love at first sight but more of an attraction, an interest.. Of course, if you meet someone, there are times that it’ll spark an interest for you to know the person more.. So, you’ll try to get close to the person, befriend her and see if you two could be a match.. For me, as I understand with love that developed and bloomed, you started out as being friends and then eventually feelings developed into more than friends..”

Two different opinions yet both of them have a point.. Maybe “love at first sight” is too shallow and can’t be called love but merely an attraction at first.. A spark.. Then from there is where the magic starts..

But then again.. We could still consider it magical since in this world of 7.1 B people, two souls found their match whom they’ll be able to spend forever.. Hehehe.. Soul mates..

So, it will start with spark, an interest to this person which would push you to get to know them more.. Then, if both have similarities, it becomes magical that they started to compliment each other.. Not knowing that, the spark became magical then blossomed to becoming love.. 🙂

My Life

Time…

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Time goes by so fast…

 Am I just in a dream or is this really happening? It just seemed yesterday that I had my 29th birthday, my mom’s 6th death anniversary and Christmas.. And now, I’m turning 30, my mom’s 7th death anniversary is approaching and the tremendous spending time of Christmas again!?

 What have had happened in the past year that I may have missed? Mistakes I made and lessons I learned from them? I should remember some and then tell myself that I spent another year wisely.

 In this fast-paced life, every opportunity, every chance we encounter, we should grab and use it to the best way possible..

 Every emotion, every feelings, every drop of love should be cherished and kept in our hearts as once a moment passed by without you noticing it, it’s gone forever..

 Until now, the feelings of my childhood remains and I still feel like a little kid clinging to the arms of whoever I have beside me.. Wanting to be taken care of and pampered with so much love that I don’t want to leave that comfort zone.. I know I should have left it a long time ago, journeyed on my own and learn the pains and sufferings of this battlefield they call life..

 I tried to test the waters and dipped my feet a few number of times.. Took courage and jumped onto the unknown but returned broken and wounded like a soldier who charged without having his armor and sword.. Left to die but was given another chance to face the world again with more courage and strength..

 But that doesn’t seem to be the case.. The soldier was so wounded that it reached the depths of her soul and released a thick blanket of protection over her heart and mind.. Clothed with this protection, the soldier feels the comfort of staying on the safer side of life.. Doing nothing, waiting for nothing, pretending it’s nothing.. And with this, another year had passed without her noticing it..

 Yes, she didn’t feel any pain at all and wasn’t hurt at all.. But is that it? Should she be happy that she didn’t experience them? Should her heart be rejoicing that it wasn’t taken and returned broken? Is this one reason for a celebration?

 If this is an assessment test on how well I played the game in the battlefield—definitely, I failed.

 As I turn another leaf in this book of life, I’m facing a great challenge whether to stay in my comfort zone or go out there and bravely join the battlefield. I know I have gained my armor and sword but I am still lacking that courage to move forward.. I need a leap of faith..

 Whether to leap or not, whether someone will catch me there or none.. We still don’t know.. Nobody knows..

 And the clock is ticking fast..

 My time is running out..

 I have to make a decision now.. Should the soldier stay put? Or should she move forward?

Oh, the soldier answered – “I still have 45 days left, let me still enjoy where I am..”  ;-P