Hitting others is so natural to her just like breathing when she’s excited.
She is Maria Agueda Duque Del Rio.
I’ve known her for 3 years now and though just like me, she is one of the oldest in our group, she acts like she is the youngest. Well, she is a pampered lady in her own family. She always gets what she wants.
But just like a kid, immature as we may say, but she also shows the strength and will of a young person. Determined to get whatever she wanted and will stand by it no matter what. She doesn’t like showing weakness to others.
We may always have some misunderstandings due to a clash of our differences, we have lots of common traits as well. We still end up as being close friends and sisters even if now are apart. She now works in Eastwood and has never met each other since she resigned in January. But still keeping the lines open through text and social media.
Today is your day Agueda, and now, you are already 30! Nyahaha! Welcome to the world of single women in their 30s! Let’s not lose hope and keep the faith!
Regrets? I am full of them. I couldn’t even remember the very first time I had it.
In this life, we can never live without having regrets in our decisions once in a while. They help us grow and learn from our mistakes. They go hand in hand with experience as great teachers.
Recently, I made some hasty decisions based on my emotion and though I couldn’t say I have fully regretted everything that happened, it still bothers me a lot. It really felt different when I was currently in that situation compared to when I was already out of it. My thoughts and logical reasoning had been clouded and though I know things will never be the same after that, I still went on and followed my feelings. And yes, I was correct that nothing will ever be the same again.
From the instance that moment is over, the people involved suddenly changed. A 360 degrees full turn was evident but still trying to be oblivious about it. It’s like each second was so crucial and whatever remarks given would be too much to handle. Ego and Pride became too friendly that no one would take the blame or just admit that there was something wrong done.
I was hoping it’ll eventually pass and things will be back to how they were before – or so I thought.
Days passed and my mind has already accepted the fact that I can no longer change anything and just have to move on and continue my life. That these things were meant to happen to give me lessons to learn. But it becomes difficult if those around you are no longer the same as they used to be. That suddenly, those people who you thought would be nonchalant and would just brush it off became awkward and aloof. You tried to reach out and come to an agreement but to no avail.
I felt like a rag doll thrown at the corner of the room. Something that is no longer of use. A rag doll who can’t do anything since the decision is no longer hers. And just waiting for the right moment for someone to pick her up from that corner and give her the time and affection that was previously provided to her. Just like a good old friend.
This rag doll is not expecting anything nor hoping something will come up. She is just wishing that everything will go back to how it was before and remove all the awkwardness. Regrets happen and they happen a lot of time. And sulking isn’t the best approach. Accepting and moving on are much better options.