Some Ramdom Thoughts About Love…

I’m nearing my 30th birthday and I would say I am way beyond the marrying age (should be around 25, right?).. This is the age where I no longer believe in fairytale-like love stories and, as they say, “reality bites”–no such thing as fairytales, only in the books.. Sorry to burst your bubbles, peeps!

When I was still a little girl, I dreamt of meeting my true love in a somehow magical way (haha!) — I’d be in a place I’ve never been before then as I looked around, I’d meet the guy’s eyes and from there, it would be love at first sight! Then, we would be so in love that from the time we met, we’re inseparable–high school, college, until we have our own careers.. Planned for our future and would decide to get married eventually, have kids and grow old together..

Wouldn’t that be magical? I didn’t know then that those things only happen in the movies or in the books.. That, for you to be able to find love, you have to be brave, learn from mistakes, take risks.. Which, I wouldn’t dare do again..

If you have invested all your emotions to someone and it didn’t work out, you’ll feel exhausted and you’ll start building this high wall–brick by brick–not for anyone who dares to enter, but instead, it is built for yourself not to experience the pains and sufferings again (well, for me, that was the reason). You’ll also have something in your heart that somehow controls it whenever you feel attracted to someone (like a remote control!?).. Yah yah, right.. I sound like a very bitter, devastated woman.. Hmmm.. Maybe.. I don’t know..

Is that how people would describe a woman like me? A woman who is so frightened to take any risks because she might fall for the wrong person again? Someone who, once she falls in love, holds back her feelings and let the ‘what ifs’ hanging? Or simply just because she hates rejection?

Whatever the reason I may have behind my mind (I really don’t know the exact reason!), for now, I already accepted the fact that I may stay single forever.. That God sometimes doesn’t provide partners to other people and are destined to follow a different path in life.. I am still yet to discover what really God has prepared for me but I am praying that someday, somehow, He will take away this fear I have and will take courage to jump onto the other side of the fence not being afraid of whatever I may discover..

A Poem For You..

I was on my way home one rainy morning, when words just came flowing in my mind creating a short poem about a silent and unrequited love.. It has been years since the last time I was able to compose a poem or even tried to.. I thought I’ve already forgotten about it..

Should I say the words came directly from the deepest part of my heart? I don’t know.. They say that some times, our deepest desires show like words whispered to your ears or they just cross your mind..

Yes, I admit it, I am currently in a situation wherein to do nothing is the best thing.. And moving forward would only create chaos more to myself than any other person.. Well, I guess, all I can do is just stand still and just express it here..


A Prayer A Day…

A story is told about about a lawyer and a doctor who were courting the same woman. The lawyer had to be away on a trip for a week. To make sure that he will not be at a disadvantage while he was gone, he sent her seven apples with a note: “An apple a day keeps the doctor away.”

A prayer each day keeps the adversary away.

How regular is your prayer life?

Pray. Pray. Pray.

– Excerpt from Meaningful Moments by Fr. Orbos

My Newly Adopted Odd-Eye Kitty..


When I was feeding our neighbor’s cat, Catcat, this white kitten just came out from the bushes stretching and seemed to just awaken from his slumber.. I immediately offered him food but declined.. Maybe somebody gave him already..

I tried to befriend this cutie because I immediately fell in love with his eyes! One is blue and the other is amber and he is pure white! When he finally decided to trust me, I lead him inside our home, cleaned him and played with him.. After that, he didn’t leave anymore.. He is such a cutie and loves to sleep in weird positions.. Hmmm.. Hehehe..

He is so loud and won’t stop until you give hm something to eat then once he’s full, he will just fall asleep on the sofa.. He already owned the 1-seater actually.. Hehehe.. Well, again.. Cats are normally like that!! You don’t own them, they own you!!