In Love?

β€œI was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it — to be fed so much love I couldn’t take any more. Just once. ”

β€” Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

Am I in love?

I guess so.

Wait!

No!

I AM in love. So MUCH in love.

So much that I can’t contain it anymore. I need help. I feel like I am drowning and I know there’s a big possibility that I’ll be hurt more than I could imagine.

I don’t want to be pessimistic on our relationship and there’s no one else to blame but myself if all of these explode to my face someday. I wanted this badly, and I have prayed for it a couple of times. Now that I have it, no matter what, I’ll hold on to it.

Is it wrong to love too much? Is it wrong to give your all to someone without expecting something in return?
If this is wrong, then let me be wrong all my life. I want to stay with him as long as I can and as long as he wants me beside him.

My heart is now in his hands. All I can do is just hope that he will take care of it like it was his own heart.